Raging

In Geoff Dyer's Out of Sheer Rage, he plays the intellectual fool well:

"Life is really no more than a search for hot drinks one likes" (72).

"The perfect life . . .is one which prevents you from doing that which you would ideally have done (painted, say, or written unpublishable poetry) but which, in fact, you have no wish to do" (126).

"My greatest urge in life is to do nothing.  It's not even an absence of motivation, a lack, for I do have a strong urge: to do nothing" (226).

"I read nothing and did nothing.  I spent most of my time watching TV which may not sound so extreme but this was mornings and afternoons, it was Italian TV and--the clincher--the TV wasn't even turned on. Nothing interested me--and this, in the end, is what saved me.  I had no interest in anything, no curiosity.  All I felt was: I am depressed, I am depressed.  And then, this depression generated its own flicker of recovery. I became interested in depression" (227-228).

It hits a bit close to home.